Asking for help

I need help. There it is. It has been said. Those three words may be the hardest phrase I have had to say. Harder even than saying I love you. To me asking for help is admitting I cant do something, and inevitably admitting my defeat. I have discovered that my pride gets in they way of the aid I need from others. The biggest thing I love about Kivu is the community and everyone's willingness to drop anything and everything to help each other out. If another leadership or staff member asked me for help I would drop what I was doing to help them out, so why is it so difficult for me to ask the same of them?

Two weeks ago when I first got to Kivu as a leadership member I was very nervous. Being Head Cook was a scary thought for me, but I wanted to do the best I could, and to do it all myself. Over these two weeks I have realized no job can be done alone. I have consistently refused help, even if I needed it, so that it wouldn't look like I couldn't do it. I have come to realize that I cannot do my job on my own; no one should be doing their job on their own. Kivu has created this amazing community for a reason. We are all here to lean on each other.

Yesterday I read through Genesis and found comfort in 2:18 where is says "It is not good that man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him." Now I know this refers to when God decided to create Eve, but this verse spoke to my time of need. God does not want us to be alone. He created us to be each others helpers, which is kind of cool. We were not created to be alone and to do everything by ourselves. If that is what God wanted he wouldn't have even created Eve and none of us would exist.